is NOT okay.
One more time, with feeling:
Asking me about my weight is NOT okay.
Over the past 3 days, I've had at least as many questions about my weight.
I tried to pass the questions off like they don't bother me. I noticed myself avoiding the requisite response that usually follows a yes/no question.
Instead of confirmation or denial, I changed the subject:
"My hair's longer, that's all"
"My medication affects my weight".
But those responses are a reminder that questions about my weight DO still bother me.
I'm reminded that my subconscious still expends quite of bit of energy uselessly thinking about bodies (mine and therefore others) in absolute terms:
not __________ enough.
Which makes me realize that even though I have said goodbye to Anorexia, I am still sensitive to comments about appearance. And even though I spread the message about body acceptance through my volunteer work with Sheena's Place, there is still a wee place inside me that needs to really embody that message.
There are days when I struggle with having to take my meds to help manage Bipolar Disorder. The fact that my meds affect my weight does not make them popular with me on those days.
So I have to talk myself out of using the weight gain side effect as an excuse to ditch the pharmaceuticals (which really do help me....it's just that occasionally my bipolar brain tries to convince me otherwise by glamorizing mania and the accompanying weight loss).
My appearance is not who I am, so my weight is quite irrelevant. I am sensational because I ebb and flow and change and evolve.
In summary, Asking me about my weight is NOT okay.
(it actually sets me back a little)
For more information about healing from body image issues or eating disorders, check out Sheena's Place ~ they offered me so much. Also, take a look at the National Eating Disorders Information Centre (NEDIC) website ~ the beautiful picture above comes from them.